There are few moments in life where it feels like time freezes. When you get perspective on the years you’ve accumulated on this earth. It’s almost as if there’s a time lapse of rapid fire events that add up to your life as you’ve come to understand it. The milestones and triumphs. The shortcomings and perceived failures. The seasons of stagnation and treading water, unaware that you were moving the entire time, at the speed the universe intended.
It’s in these moments, where you realize all of these experiences have equated to “right now”. The present. The thing we are always in search of, even if we are unaware of our pursuit.
Last night on stage at Key Arena I had one of those moments. Where time stopped. Flooded with emotion I watched the unveiling of a banner hanging from the rafters. My name was on it, signifying a total 5 nights of sold out shows at Key Arena. To say it was a career highlight feels like an understatement.
But what I saw was layers to that banner. I saw myself at 7 years old dancing to Michael Jackson songs on my grandparents living room table. I saw myself as a 15 year old kid getting on stage for the first time and losing my voice after 4 bars from screaming into a microphone, I had no idea how to hold. I saw myself at 23 playing for 15 people in dive bars on the outskirts of the city. I saw myself at 26 going to treatment, unsure how I fit in this world without the use of drugs and alcohol which I had become dependent on. I saw myself at 29, sober, putting out The Heist with Ryan and traveling to corners of the earth I never knew existed, playing our music.
Seattle, you are the most inter-gal part of my story. Without your support, the rest of the world wouldn’t know my music exists. Ever since I was at Garfield High School, the thing that I wanted the most was to make my city proud of me. To represent our corner of the map like those that came before me. The last 2 nights were magic. I’m savoring them. And if the banner that’s hanging from the rafters of Key Arena is any indication, I would say we made history. I love you Seattle. Thank you for making me part of your story.
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